Saturday, June 23, 2007
it haf been a very fruitful day for me!
jus to share my religion story.
begining ii felt as th0ugh ii was being f0rced t0 g0.
but after ii went there. ii felt s0 great.
ii made new buddhism frans and
ii learnt m0re tings abt my religions.
ii felt so gulity when ii saw the physically disable uncle chanted 2-3 hrs daily
yet ii cant even get my knees dwn for jus 5 mins. :(
and worst to worst ii can even skipped my chanting.
since ii have learnt the c0rrect way to attain buddhism,
ii have decided t0 change for the better.
t0 chant m0re
and t0 respect my religion m0re.
enjoyed myself in the camp despite im not allowed to stay over nite.
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another ting.
ii am so pissed off when my parents controlled me like HELL!
take for this kenshu for example.
ii didnt noe there was no reception despite my hp was wif me all along.
den ailin came and told me smth happen to my family.
ii was shocked.
so quickly ii called back hm.
den ii realise is actually my parents wan be hm cos its 11pm alr!
WTH?
my father actually kb at me.
scolded me. so late still don wan go hm.
my mood was great but after his fucking scolding,
ii was pissed off. felt lyke crying oso. mood sux.
den when ii reached hm.
my bro told me
"we called mr teo, den mr teo called yong sheng den yong sheng called ailin den ailian called you"
wtf!
its s0 tr0ubles0me.
is n0t as if im being kinapped 0r wat.
need t0 g0 t0 the extend 0f calling s0 many ppl ?
its such a disgrace to me!
shopping till 11pm scold
work till 11pm scold
religious till 11pm scold oso!
wtf lahs.
11pm is fucking early ok.
better shut myself in the house.
die inside better! nb.
ii d0nn0e wat the fuck they are scared of.
wats there to be scare..
making me always the EARLIEST to go hm!
pls la, don need to control until lyke tat wan lehs.
is gd to haf parents care and concern
but not till tis extend.. !
II NEED FREEDOM PLEASE!